I'm scared about going
to college... I'm feeling a lot of uncertainty about myself and my ability to handle situations. I've been told recently that I don't have much common sense because of how i was raised (my mom and dad still treat my younger brother and I like we're 6 and we're 17 and 18.we're talking no drivers license, they still call us spoiled brats, they still try to spank us, and we can't go outside without permission...even to take out the trash). I know that when i get away from my parents and into situations with people I've never met, i seem to turn into this great, self confident, and mature person. Thing is, I'm wondering if i'll be able to do that in college because I'll have to put on that facade all the time, 24/7. I'm just really nervous because I know i'm a bit socially awkward and i have a generally bad taste in friends. I don't want to get stuck in the same position i was in high school where everyone thought i wasn't able to handle myself and where people took advantage of how nice i was. I realized what was going on and that people were using me, but since i would never see any of them again, i just kept letting them use me until i got out. i can't be that person anymore, I HATED being used and stepped on. I am a person who needs to lead in order to feel fulfilled, not to follow or do other people's dirty work. i liked being the person i was when i got away those few times, and if my new life turns right back into the catastrophe from high school, i don't get a second chance.